Everything..
Everyone..
Will always looks okay..
Either from far..
Or from outside..
But…
When you get close..
When you began to enter their life..
There will be flaws and pain that’s hidden..
Some will embrace it together..
But some choose to walk away..
Because not everyone can be with you..
In your..
Sadness..
Flaw..
I'm someone who love to write. But I began to realize that my writing is better when I'm in sadness. Do you understand what I mean? I write good quotes when I'm sad, anxious or depress. I hate that.
But I want to write good writing. My plot become so good when I'm in the dark mood. And ironically, my dream was not just to write a book. But to write the saddest book in the world. To the point that people can't forget the sadness. To the point that they question their sanity!
If I want To Write A good Writing. It Means I'm Torturing Myself. But I Do Want To Write The Saddest Book.
God! I'm freaking weird..
You live your whole life thinking it's okay to get a little hurt. You don't need to tend or care for the wound/hurt.. just ignore it. You don't want to be such a cry baby.. but did you know.. what happens when you keep ignoring these? It becomes worse and bigger.. at the beginning.. you think… Ala.. That's okay.. it's just a simple wound... Just a simple hurt.. but at a certain point... It will become too much. Suddenly it becomes such a big wound and a burden to you…
You began to question yourself... What's actually hurting you?? Because you're too used to get hurt from that small wound/hurt.. To the point that you don't even realize that's actually hurt.. in the end.. You don't even know what's hurting you.. what makes you sad.. what makes you angry.. because there's too much hurt/wound that you received..
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Tapi akhirnya kau sedar…
luka yang selama ini kau sangka kecil...
luka yang selama ini kau biar tanpa rawat...
luka yang selama ini kau biar berulang...
Mula memakan dalam kau lebih lagi….
that small wound has become bigger and bigger…