Imperfect

"She can do everything" "She's smart" "She's hardworking" "She can do anything efficiently". 

No.. She can't do everything.. She's not smart. She's not that hardworking person. There's still some things that she can't do efficiently. She can never be perfect..

She just change. 

Who she is today. Is different from who she was in the past. 

Who was once a failure. 

Who was once a quitter. 

Who was once the dumbest. 

Who was once the irresponsible person ever. 

Who was once a bigger coward.....

Is trying to change... Not to be a better person than what she was in the past. But to go through life.. in the smoothest phase as she can. 

It's hard to change. Nothing is easy. She's struggling to change. Struggles that sometime she thought is not struggling but suffering. But that's what she need to pay for being the past her.

If people can see right through her. 

They probably can see abundance of times... That she want to give up. 

Be it life, chance or everything. Name it. She want to gave it up countless of time. 

But she still not. Because she used to feel that times that pass her were abnormal. But now it pass her like it chasing her.

'Dulu aku hidup bagai waktu telah melupakan aku. Sekarang aku hidup bagai dikejar waktu'

It beats her heart harder. 

To live..

"She is me. And I am trying to relive again"

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~

To Be The Last One Standing..

Isn't it kind of sad to be the last one standing. Be it in the war or in any competition/tournament or journey. To be the last one standing are means to bear and see all the hardship and failure or worse dead. It means you win. But to see others fail but you succeed alone is kind of burdensome. 

Do other people feels the same as me? I don't know what this feeling are? Or it just merely my hidden excuse to not involve in any?

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~

Change

Everything..

Everyone..

Will always looks okay..

Either from far..

Or from outside..

But…

When you get close..

When you began to enter their life..

There will be flaws and pain that’s hidden..

Some will embrace it together..

But some choose to walk away..

Because not everyone can be with you..

In your..

Sadness..

Flaw..

 

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~

I Love To Write

I'm someone who love to write. But I began to realize that my writing is better when I'm in sadness. Do you understand what I mean? I write good quotes when I'm sad, anxious or depress. I hate that. 

But I want to write good writing. My plot become so good when I'm in the dark mood. And ironically, my dream was not just to write a book. But to write the saddest book in the world. To the point that people can't forget the sadness. To the point that they question their sanity!

If I want To Write A good Writing. It Means I'm Torturing Myself. But I Do Want To Write The Saddest Book.

God! I'm freaking weird..

Inshaallah.. I'll post again..

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~

It Will Hurt You More

You  live your whole life thinking it's okay to get a little hurt. You  don't need to tend or care for the wound/hurt.. just ignore it. You don't want to be such a cry baby.. but did you know.. what happens when you keep ignoring these? It becomes worse and bigger.. at the beginning.. you think… Ala.. That's okay.. it's just a simple wound... Just a simple hurt.. but at a certain point... It will become too much. Suddenly it becomes such a big wound and a burden to you…

You began to question yourself... What's actually hurting you?? Because you're too used to get hurt from that small wound/hurt.. To the point that you don't even realize that's actually hurt.. in the end.. You don't even know what's hurting you.. what makes you sad.. what makes you angry.. because there's too much hurt/wound that you received..

..

..

Tapi akhirnya kau sedar…

luka yang selama ini kau sangka kecil... 

luka yang selama ini kau biar tanpa rawat...

luka yang selama ini kau biar berulang...

Mula memakan dalam kau lebih lagi….

that small wound has become bigger and bigger…

Inshaallah.. I'll post again..

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~

Losing Control

Looking at the past..

You realized..

What came before your anger..

Was actually sadness..

The real reason for you to be angry..

Is because you’re sad..

 

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~

Waktu

Apa yang tidak dapat kau kecapi…

Bukan kerna kau tidak mampu..

Tapi kerna tuhan tahu..

Itu bukan perlunya kau..

Belum waktunya kau…

Kerna..

Belum tentu nikmat itu kau hargai..

Jadi syukur..

Syukur kerna tuhan sebaik mungkin..

 Menghindar kau daripada menjadi orang yang tidak tahu syukur…

When the rain comes

When the tears fall

When your heart bleeds

When your night becomes your day

Remember me.. 

Inshaallah

I'll post something here..

The post that will help you

Perhaps..

~ OWL R.A.I.N ~